Make me smile... my CHARLIE...

then...when all comes out...

Ponekad poželim nekoga kraj sebe.
nekoga iskrenog...
Možda sličnog meni.
...
I opet tražim nešto drugo od onoga što mi se nudi...
Zašto??
Zašto se zatvaram u sebe i nedam nikome
da uđe u moje misli i da me spasi...
od razočarenja...
Od svih onih ljudi koji su me iznevjerili i povrijedili me...
ZAUVIJEK...
ponekad mislim da se toga nikada neću moći riješiti.
I opet se bojim...ali ne znam čega...
SEBE.
jer nitko mi drugi nije ostao...
nitko kome mogu vjerovati.
Kada to zadržim u sebi, ne postoji strah da će netko to saznati...
Jedino čega se ne bojim je ostati sama...
jer tada uživam...
Probaj! Vidjet ćeš...
nekada je za sreću dovoljno vidjeti samo osmijeh.
osmijeh na licu onoga koga voliš
do koga ti je stalo.
Prijatelja...
Već je prošlo 5 godina...
otkada su svi nestali...napustili me...i samo se pravili da su tu...
Ja sam im na tome čak i zahvalna...jer...
uspjela sam shvatiti neke stvari u životu...
I danas, kad opet imam nekoga tu, vani...
za se zatvorim u tišinu svoje sobe i sjetim se svega...
Sjetim se koliko sam puta pala kada su me starci
učili voziti bicikl...
I ono šta je bilo među njima...
Možda bi bilo bolje da se je i dogodilo...
hm...nezahvalnost...
ali, još ima nade za to...
možda ću onda napokon biti sretna jer će i oni biti sretni...
možda...
sada samo želim vidjeti njegov osmijeh na licu.
jer tada se osjećam slobodno.
to mi popravi dan.
tada osjećam da mogu letjeti...
i imam snage za dalje.
jer znam da ćemo iz "ništa" stvoriti "nešta"...
TI I JA...ZAJEDNO...
Tada ću moći reći da te volim...

01.10.2006. u 23:59 | K | 13 | P | # | ^

For the memory of something what could be...what was...

Ne želim padati u očaj.
Ja sad zapravo niti ne znam što želim.Sve je nekako čudno.Neki moji postupci više nemaju smisla.Neki moji osjećaji više ne postoje.Teško je prihvatiti činjenice da je nešto nestalo.Nešto predivno.Aopet teško je prihvatiti da se možda događa
nešto prekrasno.Ali da to jednostavno ne želim.Da to jednostavno odbacujem.
Neke moje riječi više nemaju smisla.Ne znam.Sve se nekako promijenilo.Ali ja ne znam raspoznati da li je to dobro ili loše.
da li su to samo prividi kao prije.I opet mi u uho ulaze one riječi.One meni najdraže,prekrasne pjesme....I ne znam kome da više vjerujem.
Sebi ili drugima.Teško je.Znam da sam još uvijek ona mala balavica koja na svom blogu melje o nekim sranjima koja uopće i nisu neki teški ili ozbiljni problemi.
Svijet je tako čudan.Tako nepredvidiv.I zapravo ne znam šta da očekujem kao razultat svega toga.
Ne želim više nikoga povrijediti.Ne želim više nikoga izgubiti.Ne želim pokušati.A opet ne želim propustit priliku.Jer možda je prva i zadnja.
Više nema nikoga tko bi mi rekao neke riječi utjehe.Zašto su svi uvijek mislili da sam ja sretna i neslomljiva osoba.Zašto,kad to nije istina.I ne znam više što daje pisati.Jer nešto me steže.Obuzima mi razum.Više ni ne znam tko sam.
Znaš, ponekad samo poželim da me netko čvrsto zagrli i da ja osjetim da me taj netk voli.
Do toga ću se još načekati.sigurno.I mislim da ovaj blog.,ovaj dnevnik više nea smisla.ali ne želim i neću a brisati.Želim da mi ostane uspomena na vas i na mene.
Da,ovo je oproštaj i ne želim odlučivati drugačije.Već sam htjela zatvoriti sve.i neće više biti ovdje ničeg novog od mene.Jer previše se mienjam i ne znam kako bi to prihvatili.
Zbogom svima.Volim vas i pamtit ću vas uvijek jer mi je ovo preznačajna stvar.
Ja ću u svoju vjernu bilježnicu još uvijek pisati ajmo reć postove i ako ikad ostvarim svoj san,a to je objaviti knjigu,nadam se da ćete pronaći neka moja djela kojaste već čitralči tu,na ovom blogu al i ona nova koja tek slijede.jel shvaćate.promjena.i ne želim da obuzme ove sve stranice.želim da oni prvi dojmovi ostanu i zadnji.stoga, zbogom i sretno svima...
Ja želim sama u propast...




poZDRAVlJAM vas ZaUvijeK...Voli vAs ToNkA...

27.09.2006. u 22:20 | K | 7 | P | # | ^

let the start be the same like always was

Ponekad želim biti ono bezbrižno dijete kao i nekad.
bez problema.
i da mislim samo na igru.
da mi nitko ne može zamjeriti radi neke krive stvari.
jer ipak sam ja samo dijete.
želim plakati jer sam pala.
želim biti mala maza.
želim biti ono drečavo derište.
koje plače nakon svake krive stvari.
želim biti u centru pažnje.
želim da svi govore kako sam mirno i dobro dijete.
Želim opet držati balone u zraku.




hm.
kao i prije.
zašto uvijek izazovem probleme gdje ih ne treba??
zašto još uvijek vjerujem u ono što su me davno uvjerili?
zašto ne mogu prihvatiti činjenice?
zašto ne mogu izbrisati prošlost?
početi ispočetka.
sve drugačije.
zašto se ne mogu vratiti u vrijeme djetinjstva?
zašto?
zašto me opet obuzima depresija?
zašto nisam mogla ostati u onom happy stanju?
zašto mi je opet teško prikazati svoju pravu stranu??



puno pitanja.
a niti jedan odgovor.
zašto....
zašto sve što je lijepo kratko traje????
objasnite mi to!!!!!!



jer ja ne mogu sama dalje.

13.09.2006. u 21:24 | K | 3 | P | # | ^

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Slušate::Evanescence - My immortal

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Charlie

Hu.
All ABOARD stitch IN time
Get yours, I got mine
In a minute I'll be there
Sit tight, get square

You COULD DO AT THE HIPPODROME
SLIDE back, trombone
Anybody got a TV TOME
Thats right, unknown.

When I pick up on that smell
Pick it up and run like hell
Little women SAVE me some
Better get up on your run

Hu.
So much more than Charlie's waking me
To my CORE and Charlie's shaking me
Tell my story
Charlie's making me
An Charlie's making me smile.
Whoahoa, now

(Chorus)
Tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick
wu wu wu wu wu wu dor
wake wake wake wake wake wake wake
wu wu wu wu wu wu wor

Everybody do the twist
Get the the message off FLEA'S fists
Move around like a scientist
Lay down, get kissed

Big picture and it never lies
Big daddy, WILL ADVISE
EVEREADY in disguise
Sunset, sunrise

When I pick up on that smell
Pick it up and run like hell
Little women SAVE me some
Better get up on your run

Hu.
So much more than Charlie's waking me
To my CORE and Charlie's shaking me
Tell my story
Charlie's making me
And Charlie's making me smile.
Woahoah, now

My heart
Your skin
This love
I'm in
We don't arrive, without a suprise
You're right
I'm wrong
be free
belong
INTIMATE SIGHT HAS COME INTO LIGHT

When I pick up on that smell
Pick it up and run like hell
Little women SAVE me some
Better get up on your run

All I ever wanted to
Was pick it up and run with you
Slip it into a summer spell
Double up and run like hell

Hu.
So much more that Charlie's waking me
To my CORE and Charlie's shaking me
Tell my story
Charlie's making me
An Charlie's making me smile.
Woahoah, now.

My heart
Your skin
This love
I'm in
We don't arrive, without a suprise
You're right
I'm wrong
be free
belong
INTIMATE SIGHT HAS COME INTO LIGHT
My heart
Your skin
This love
I'm in
We don't arrive, without a suprise
You're right
I'm wrong
be free
belong
INTIMATE SIGHT HAS COME INTO LIGHT


Ramones - Sheena is a punk rocker

Well the kids are all hopped up and ready to go
They're ready to go now
They got their surfboards
And they're going to the Discotheque Au Go Go
But she just couldn't stay
She had to break away
Well New York City really has it all
Oh yeah, oh yeah.

Sheena is a punk rocker
Sheena is a punk rocker
Sheena is a punk rocker now.
She's a punk punk, a punk rocker
Punk punk, a punk rocker
Punk punk, a punk rocker.



Pantera - Hollow

What's left inside him?
Don't he remember us?
Can't he believe me?
We seemed like bothers
Talked for hours last month
About what we wanna be
I sit now with his hand in mine
But I know he can't feel...

No one knows
What's done is done
It's as if he were dead

I'm close with his mother
And she cries endlessly
Lord how we miss him
At least what's remembered
It's so important to make best friends in life
But it's hard when my friend sits with blank expressions

No one knows
What's done is done
It's as if he were dead

He as hollow as I alone now
He as hollow as I alone
A shell of my friend
Just flesh and bone
There's no soul
He sees no love
I shake my fists at skies above
Mad at God

He as hollow as I converse
I wish he'd waken from this curse
Hear my words before it's through
I want to come in after you
My best friend

He as hollow as I alone



Pantera - This love

If ever words were spoken
Painful and untrue
I said I loved but I lied
In my life
All I wanted
Was the keeping
Of someone like you
As it turns out
Deeper within me
Love was twisted and pointed at you

Never ending pain, quickly ending life --

[Chorus]
You keep this love, thing, love, child, love, toy
You keep this love, fist, love, scar, love, break
You keep this love

I'd been the tempting one
Stole her from herself
This gift in pain
Her pain was life
And sometimes I feel so sorry
I regret this the hurting of you
But you make me so unhappy
I'd take my life and leave love with you

I'd kill myself for you, I'd kill you for myself --

[Chorus]

No more head trips



Pantera - Cemetary gates


The reverend he turned to me
Without a tear in his eyes
It's nothing new for him to see
I didn't ask him why
I will remember
The love our souls had
Sworn to make
Now I watch the falling rain
All my mind can see
Now is your (face)

Well I guess
You took my mouth
I gave it all away
Like the birth of a
New-found joy
This love would end in rage
And when she died
I couldn't cry
The pride within my soul
You left me incomplete
Memories now unfold.

Believe the word
I will unlock my door
And pass the
Cemetery gates

Sometimes when I'm alone
I wonder aloud
If you're watching over me
Some place far abound
I must reverse my life
I can't live in the past
Then set my soul free

Belong to me at last
Through all those
Complex years
I thought I was alone

I didn't care to look around
And make this world my own
And when she died
I should've cried and spared myself some pain...
Left me incomplete
All alone as the memories still remain

The way we were
The chance to save my soul
And my concern is now in vain
Believe the word
I will unlock my door
And pass the cemetery gates


Pantera - Respect

Can't you see im easily I'm bothered by persistence,
One step from lashing out at you,
You wanted to get under my skin,
And call yourself friend,
I've got more friends like you,
What do I do?
Is there no standing by?
What it takes,
Who I am,
Where I've been,
ALONE!
You can't be something you're not,
Be yourself, by yourself,
Stay away from me,
A lesson learned in life,
Known from the dawn of time.....

RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
What did you say?!
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
ARE YOU TALKIN' TO ME?!
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?!

Run your mouth when I'm not around,
It's easy to achieve,
You try to make friends, not sympathize
Can you hear the violins playin' your song,
Those secrets tell me your every word,
Is there no standing by?
What it takes,
Who I am,
Where I've been,
ALONE!
You can't be something you're not,
Be yourself, by yourself,
Stay away from me,
A lesson learned in life,
Known from the dawn of time.....

RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
What do you say?!?
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?!
RE!
SPECT!
WALK! What did you say?!
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
ARE YOU TALKIN' TO ME?!
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?!
NO WAY PUNK!

(very good guitar interlude)

RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
What do you say?!?
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?!
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
What did you say?!
RE!
SPECT!
WALK!
ARE YOU TALKIN' TO ME?!
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?!
I'm goin' home boy.

(another guitar interlude)
(music slowly fades out)


Red Hot Chili Peppers - Tell Me Baby


??????
It's ok, gonna make you feel alive
?????
What have you come to do?

Not turning water into wine
Love waiting while you're in the line
I'll take you to the ride
You see me like I do

Come and get it, lost it in the city limits
Find a witness, they provide the ?????????
Everybody lookin' for a better ????????
Gotta get away, can't take it for a little bit

This love was made to penetrate
Just kick ass, ???????????????????
So high it doesn't promise me

Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
Tell me lover, are you lonely
The thing we need is never all that far behind
Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
You're so lovely are you lonely
The innocence that you promised not to leave behind

It's ok to have your fortitude
To shoot your load, you meant to do
Sustain and ??????????
Still got ????????????????????

I lose you like a fairytale
Two brothers on the microphone
?????????????????
This time it's time to stop

Chili chili baby when your stuck in the nitty gritty
I can be bittersweet I can be a little chilly
What a pitty, Boston and a Kansas City
Lookin', for a ???????????????????

Two fingers in the honeycomb
?? like a xylophone
?????? into the chromeosone

Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
Tell me lover, are you lonely
The thing we need is never all that far behind
Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
You're so lovely, are you lonely
The set of cones all the innocence that you left behind, behind

Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
Tell me lover, are you lonely
The thing we need is never all that far behind
Tell me baby, what's your story
Where you come from and where you want to go this time
You're so lovely, are you lonely
The set of cones and the innocence that you left behind, behind


Red Hot Chili Peppers - Wet Sand

My shadow’s side so amplified
Coming back to dissatisfied
Elementary son, but it’s soul
My lover fair with everywhere
Was innocent why do you care
Someone stop the car
Time to go
You’re the best I know

My sunny side has up and died
I'm betting now where we (co-lie)
Universal shift into a love
The travesty that we have seen
Are treating ????? builds a dream
Automatic laughter from a (crow)

My what a good day for a, walk outside
I'd like to get to know you a little better baby
God knows that I'll really try
My what a good day for we take a ride
I'd like to say we did it for the (better of)

I saw you there so unaware
Those hummingbirds all in your hair
Elementary, son, but it’s (soul)
The disrepair of Norma Jean
Could not compare to your routine
(Ballerama) beauty going toe to toe

My what a good day for a, let it slide
I'd like to say we did it for the (better of)

I thought about it and I brought it out
I'm motivated by the lack of doubt
I'm concentrated but I'm not devout
The mother, the father, the daughter

Right on the verge just one more dose
I’m traveling from coast to coast
My theory isn’t perfect but it's close
I'm almost there why should I care
My heart is hurting when I share
Someone open up, let it show

My what a good day for a, walk outside
I'd like to think we did it for the (better of)

I thought about it and I brought it out
I'm motivated by the lack of doubt
I concentrated but I'm not devout
The Mother, the father, the daughter

Oh you don't foam in the wet sand
You don't foam at all
Woah you don't foam in the wet sand, I do, yeah

You don't foam in the wet sand
You don't foam at all
Woah you don't foam in the wet sand, I do, yeah!


Sistem of a down - Hypnotize

Why don't you ask the kids at Tiananmen square?
Was Fashion the reason why they were there?

They disguise it, Hypnotize it
Television made you buy it

I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my...

She's scared that I will take her away from there
Her dreams that her country left with no one there

Mezmerize the simple minded
Propaganda leaves us blinded

I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl
I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl

I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl
I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my

Girl


Sistem of a down - Lonely day

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And its mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived



Alice In Chains - Down In A Hole

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I dont know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You dont understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who wont let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Id like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and theyve put all
The stones in their place
Ive eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Id like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, outta control
Id like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

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